Not the Enemy I Thought it Was?
The title of this blog comes from the phrase "not the enemy I thought it was". I found this phrase as I wrote out some feelings about Leo's brain damage a couple of years ago. I was so angry at God for so long. And I remember finding the place where I wasn't mad anymore. I genuinely wouldn't change what happened to Leo if I could. I said something like, "Leo's brain damage isn't the enemy that I thought it was." I thought it robbed me of: communicating with my son, joy, fruitful and fulfilling life, physical accomplishments, freedom, among other things. And I have realized over the years that Leo's body was designed by God and through his life--the physical, mental, spiritual, and emotional parts of him--I learn about God in ways that I wouldn't if he was "normal". With that being said, these days I'm going through a period of feeling like cerebral palsy, in particular, is an enemy that we will always be fighting wi...